Today, I wanted to talk about something I briefly touched on in my last post. I mentioned that it seems like every winter, right after we roll the clocks back, I start feeling a little blue. Stress seems to affect me more when it’s cold and dark out, and sometimes I get bouts of anxiety that practically immobilize me. When it gets bad, you’ll find me sitting in bed, wasting time on my phone because I can’t do anything else, like read or go out. Nasty thoughts creep up on me, and they rattle around in my head, telling me I’m not good enough (for what??) or that I’m a loser.
But this year isn’t like that. The anxiety is still there, but over time, I’ve figured out some ways to beat it down on my own. I’m certainly not opposed to getting professional help (I’ve had both a therapist and a relationship coach this year) or using medication when it’s necessary, but I have some personal strategies that seem to be pretty helpful for when I’m down.
First thing? No coffee. For a while, I drank coffee like a Gilmore, but I gradually came to the realization that in addition to boosting my energy, it can also make me feel like everything that ever stressed me out is coming to get me. These days, I drink lots of tea, but I do have a coffee now and then when I know my day is pretty clear of Things That Worry Me, like deadlines or chores or any little thing.
Speaking of Things That Worry Me, I’ve cut down on those, too. Taking it easy with this blog has been such a huge relief, and I’m also taking it a little easier with dating. Now I have more time for other hobbies that help me relax…
…Like working out! I’ve been a big Blogilates fan for a few years, and now more than ever, I see how much of an effect Cassey Ho and her stupid-hard routines have on me. Just half an hour every day will give me energy and clear my head until the next day when I get down on my yoga mat again and scream my way through eagle crunches and hip twists. Sometimes (all the time) it can be really hard to motivate myself to put on my workout clothes, but when I remind myself how amazing I’ll feel afterward, I can endure thirty minutes of leg lifts and other torture.
Now, even with these strategies, I do still have “those” days. In fact, I’m having one today, and it really sucks. But I know I have some control over it, and you know what? I’m gonna put on one of those Blogilates vids and crunch it out.