It’s been on my list for some time to shoot at the downtown area of my new town, and I finally had the chance last week to do it. I’m trying to rearrange my shooting schedule so that I can take pictures during slower times (Monday night! Saturday morning!), which means being able to take pictures in a popular place like this without too much distraction.
Back when I was apartment hunting, I remember really wanting to live right here. I love those cobblestones and all the lights strung out across the streets! Thankfully, I ended up living only a few blocks from here, so at least it’s no trouble to take a quick stroll.
Speaking of schedules and shooting and busyness, I was thinking about how I do so much now that I don’t know myself quite as well as I used to. All during high school and college, I kept a journal on an impressively consistent basis. I’d write down everything that was bothering me or was exciting or that I was nervous about, and I’d analyze my feelings on every subject with great detail. Sometimes I’d write poems or do little character vignettes, but after I started my grown-up job, all of that stopped abruptly.
I became so wrapped up in the whirl of adulthood–of moving out, cooking, going out, dating, raising a puppy, all those small things–that I stopped trying to figure myself out. In my last post, I mentioned that I was taken aback upon realizing I’m lonely, but if this move had happened five years ago, I’d have known this was going to be a possibility. Unlike my younger days, my feelings sometimes confuse me because I don’t have the time to think them through.
This blog is a good creative outlet for me, but it’s not exactly the place for me to explore my innermost feelings. From now on, I want to get back on track and try to write a little bit more, privately. With everything that’s going on right now, understanding myself is really important. Maybe I can start discovering where I’m headed.
Skirt: old, ModCloth
Shoes: old, Seychelles